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TR: Watch out.
CH: hale, do you know what clairvoyant means?
CH: im pretty sure i dont see the future
TR: Terminally ill, probably.
CH: its not that at all, so i can assure you im not ill with anything
TR: I'm not worried.
TR: But.
TR: You do see the future. That's a pretty important thing you do. So you're wrong about that.
TR: Other you.
CH: huh
TR: If you can't get better.
CH: what do you mean if i cant get better?
TR: I forgot a dot.
TR: If you can't, get better.
CH: i dont think its really possible but ill try
TR: Don't be a loser.
TR: Ha. Hah. Nope.
CH: what?
TR: Don't worry about it. Nothing's happening.
CH: you make it sound like something is happening
CH: are you okay hale?
TR: Yes.
CH: can you tell me whats going on at least?
TR: Nothing going on.
TR: No hunting. No bullshit. No dying.
TR: Don't know when it's going to happen again though.
CH: the hunting and dying?
CH: hale, im not asking if theres anything physically going on, im asking if youre okay mentally right now
TR: Pretty much never.
TR: So probably.
CH: you cant tell?
TR: I'm an expert in my field.
TR: Of not knowing shit.
CH: right i see
TR: Ha.
TR: See faster.
CH: that implies i see the present, not the future
CH: again, i cant do that even if i wanted to
TR: Yeah.
TR: I might be doing bad.
CH: do you want to talk about it?
TR: Don't know. Can't sleep.
CH: i can talk instead then, if youd like
TR: I think.
TR: I don't know. If I'll ever be able to fucking sit down and stay there.
TR: There's too much. I don't know how to have a life when this is over. I never thought about what came after getting out. I said I'd figure it out when I got there.
TR: I don't know what to do.
TR: Almost everyone thinks I'm a fucking freak. I don't care. I don't need them to know me. Or understand me. I don't want them to. But what the fuck is it all for.
TR: The more I sit down the more I think. I don't want to. I hate thinking. Thinking makes me feel like shit. Sleep is just nightmares. Nothing's happening. It could happen when I sleep. Not doing anything worthwhile then anyway.
TR: Maybe thinking about normal is fucking stupid and I never make it out.
TR: I'm sick of this fucking game. I'm sick of my life being a game. Being a fucking piece. The bracelets. All of it.
CH: im sorry
CH: i hope you know i really wish i could help out somehow
CH: as for normalcy, that never really worked out for me either. even if i did try to make it work
CH: i know this isnt like anything youre going through but. still thought id say that
CH: even with all circumstances here it just didnt work for me
TR: I don't fucking like talking. I don't know why I did that.
TR: You're. I don't like nice people. Or happy people. I don't fucking get it. Understand.
TR: I don't know what the fuck I'm talking about. It just keeps on happening.
CH: thats alright
TR: You're not happy. I feel shit like that now.
TR: You're nice to me anyway.
TR: My head hurts.
TR: Cole.
CH: its the least i can do
CH: yeah?
TR: You changed. But you're still the same.
TR: How do you know what parts stay.
CH: i dont, is the thing
CH: i guess it just happens
TR: I can't have this be what I am.
TR: Everything I was supposed to be. I can't.
TR: Nothing else is right.
TR: Maybe I'm going to be stuck.
CH: there isnt any point in thinking that
CH: things change constantly
CH: and unexpectedly
CH: i dont know if this makes any sense
TR: Not how the game works.
TR: Everything was always going to happen this way.
CH: well do you know everything thats going to happen in the future?
TR: No.
TR: But they've told me that I have the potential to be horrible.
TR: So maybe this is as good as I get.
CH: what you do and how you act is not anyone elses choice
CH: potential to be something can mean nothing
CH: it really doesnt have to mean anything at all TR: Maybe.
TR: But I don't know.
TR: I don't know what happens tomorrow.
TR: Someone does.
CH: its okay if you dont know. usually no one knows things like that
CH: at least here
TR: I never know.
TR: I think I feel less bad.
CH: thats good, im really glad
TR: Are you okay.
CH: im okay now
TR: You have people, right.
CH: you could say so, yeah
TR: You didn't. Before. Or. He didn't.
TR: Don't be lonely. If you can.
CH: ill try
TR: That's not good enough.
TR: I want you to be okay.
CH: i was never really good at things like that
CH: i can promise to leave the house every couple days
CH: if thats better
CH: i cant really guarantee to be okay, but i can try
TR: Ok.
TR: Good.
TR: I think I need to knock myself out.
CH: thats a concerning way of wording that
TR: Sleeping isn't working and I've been awake for 40 hours.
CH: christ
CH: how do you even manage that?
TR: Make sure nothing happens.
CH: will do
CH: and heres something
CH: [Phil_Ochs_Changes.mp3]
CH: not my recording but
CH: helps me sleep sometimes
TR: Thank you.

TR: I like this one.
TR: Maybe it'll help.